I haven’t been writing much lately. I’ve neglected my blog about my PA struggles and therein lies the clue. That would be because I am spending more time in “Acceptance”. I’ve decided to drop the burden I’ve been dragging for over a decade. And its liberating. Its now 7 long years since I was in her … More Hello Acceptance
A few days ago my daughter left to travel around Europe for 6 months. She didn’t say goodbye. I don’t know where she is going but I imagine she will be in Paris at some stage. Paris is significant in our relationship and I thought I would share why it invokes special memories for me … More Of Pain and Paris
Originally posted on my FB page 10/6/16 Today my wife and I dropped into the little bank branch at the local market. They saw her surname and asked if she is Mr Thongchai _____’s daughter. My wife answered in the affirmative and they asked about his health but could not hide their amusement. Apparently he … More Thai Tellers tell us.
As of today I have had about 8 hours contact with my daughter in the last 1607 days. That’s 8 hours out of 38568 hours or 0.02% of the time passed in the last four and a half years. So for 99.98% of the time since she turned 13 she has not seen her Dad. … More Waiting For S
Posted to my Facebook page 1/5/15 I recently received my daughter’s School Report in the mail. It remains the only tiny shred of information that tells me she is alive. You can imagine how utterly overwhelming is the spectrum of emotions I go through when I hold that precious bit of paper and drink in … More My Priority and Measuring Loss
My grandfather didn’t talk about the war much. He preferred to tease us with his later amazing stories when he was a spy for Australia. I remember I asked him once about this Gallipoli map he drew but he didn’t dwell. I’ll never forget the one time he did open up. We were in the … More Bill B__: Anzac and Spy
Today I watched and marveled at how 2 sisters with their Thai ways and Buddhist values transformed a hospital ward. The mood was sombre as I entered the dark public ward where my mother-in-law lay listlessly trying to fight off her latest cancer related infection. The hospital is very old, very crowded and the ceiling … More Two Amazing Thai Sisters
Dear ___ I want this birthday message to be the type of letter you read then immediately want to re read. I want it to touch your heart. I want you to know as soon as you have read it that you will always treasure its words – always keep it safe regardless of years … More To My Darling Daughter on Her 17th Birthday